Why does the person I love, and whom I know loves me, not want to make love any more? Could she take a pill which would boost her sex drive?
I researched female viagra but the answers were inconclusive, does female sexual dysfunction (FSD) exist?
Then I realised - I am somewhat overweight, have numerous scars from operations, parts of me could be considered malformed because of arthritis, motorbike accidents, and the passage of time.
I guess what I am saying is that I am getting old.
Life happened; some people (like my loved one) come out of the years well, they still look young, still pretty and attractive after 30 some years have passed.
For me though, the years have not been kind, I feel the same, and am still affected by her in the same way I was when I was 18 and she was 16, but I am no longer a bright young thing.
What does she see when she looks at me? No wonder her sex drive is not there... it is not FSD, just good eyesight. Frankly, I wouldn't fancy me either...
I figured bromide was the answer, they used to give it to men in the army to reduce their sex drive, but when I googled it I just found books. Maybe it is banned now, damn!
I'm not sure where we go from here. Thank God for alcohol.
